12/31/2008

Happy New Year!!!

2008 will be no more shortly. No doubt it was a year with its ups and downs but by the grace of our Great God, we are privilege to welcome a new year. I am thrilled to have met many of you through cyberspace.





I wish you a God blessed and prosperous New Year as I look forward to know you even better.

I love you all.


The Lord is Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is - there is freedom.

12/21/2008

When life does not make sense...

I was a bit annoyed this morning or should I say early yesterday as I was leaving for work around 6 AM. We had a snow storm and my car was covered with ice. I couldn’t get the door opened and finally resorted to get some water. I was warned never to use hot water because of the damages it might cause. I managed to drive over the once was grass area – now covered with snow to back out of the driveway because the pile of snow blocking it was all ice.
During my hour drive, I was thinking about procrastination and how since my last post I have come across about 3 different ‘How-to’ get rid of procrastination tips. Apparently there’s a cure.
Then my mind shifted to the story of Job that I had read the night before. You all know about the events that took place one after another his life. It starts with:

“ In the land of Uz there lived a man whose name was Job. This man was blameless and upright; he feared God and shunned evil.” We would not expect such horrible things to happen to a righteous, God-fearing Job because after all He promises to watch over His own and protect them.

And verse 8 says: Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil."
I bet Job didn’t know God had enlisted him for the job. Was it because God was so sure that he was the man for it? I first read the book of Job or least part of it (don’t recall) when my first boyfriend died in a car accident 2 days after Christmas. It took me a year to get back to whatever ‘normal’ was and many people had suggested I read the story of Job. I still believe he was my soul mate. I have since read the book but last night, I noticed something that struck me but before I do tell- may we read the story again.


13. One day when Job's sons and daughters were feasting and drinking wine at the oldest brother's house, 14. a messenger came to Job and said, "The oxen were plowing and the donkeys were grazing nearby, 15. and the Sabeans attacked and carried them off. They put the servants to the sword, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!" 16. While he was still speaking, another messenger came and said, "The fire of God fell from the sky and burned up the sheep and the servants, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!" 17. While he was still speaking, another messenger came and said, "The Chaldeans formed three raiding parties and swept down on your camels and carried them off. They put the servants to the sword, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!" 18. While he was still speaking, yet another messenger came and said, "Your sons and daughters were feasting and drinking wine at the oldest brother's house, 19. when suddenly a mighty wind swept in from the desert and struck the four corners of the house. It collapsed on them and they are dead, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!" 20. At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship.

If you skip the passage because it’s familiar, please read the last verse. First, Job got up. Was he on the floor while getting one bad news after another with each one being worse than the previous? I have experienced grief but never at such an intense level where poor Job lost all his wealth and children in one day. He didn’t blame God. In fact, he didn’t say a single word. If he did, the author certainly left it out. What I find to be very striking is the fact that after

1. He got up.
2. Tore his robe and shaved his head.
3. HE WORSHIPED.

Yes. He fell to the ground and worship. The hosts of hell were probably in all anticipation hoping that Satan was right in his accusation of Job - to see how Job would respond to the loss of his wealth and his children while the hosts of heaven were rooting for him. Poor Job had no clue what was taken place behind the scenes in the heavenlies. There was absolutely nothing in Job’s life that compelled God to cause him to suffer. Here’s the reason I am still up at this time writing this post. I have been weeping and crying over two stories that I read about just a while ago. Two different lives that ended abruptly due to illnesses. My heart aches and I kept asking why. The first story is about a soldier name Coleman. His story was shared with us in the Precept Leaders Forum by asking for prayers for the family. His condition worsened very fast from leukemia, liver failure, followed by major organs one after another. Update and urgent prayer requests were posted daily. And about 11:05 PM, I got an email that Coleman was no more. He was gone in about two weeks. So young. Why Lord? I wept and cried for Coleman. Granted he is in the arms of His Maker but the pain and heartaches his loved ones must be going through.

Then I went to Sheryl’s blog from yesterday about dear Robynn. I read her post but did not get a chance to read Robynn's journey. Now- to read about what she went through is hard to believe in the last few days of her life. Again I cried. I kept looking at the family pictures, the children – as young as my son and cried again. We were born the same year. I am trying to hold the tears as I write this now. How do you explain to little children 8 and 6 years old that mommy is gone. They are old enough to understand and yet will wonder why mom is not there to wake them up in the morning, get them ready for school, walk them to the bus stop, drop them to school, welcome them home, sit in the audience when they graduate from elementary, junior high, high school, college, marriage and the list goes on and on. It makes you take a hard look at your own life and treasure each day as it were your last.

We may not know until we get to heaven why God allowed certain things to happen. Meanwhile, may we walk by faith and say with Job, “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
Keep these families in your prayer. Now at 1:10 AM – I will follow Job’s footsteps and go
worship.

We many know or understand but this we know that on this side of heaven when life does not make sense - we can always run to the throne for comfort.

12/18/2008

Random stuff

I can breathe a sign of relief this morning considering I am running on less than 4 hours of sleep. I had a crazy day yesterday – and come to think of it – the last few weeks have been quite hectic. A snapshot of yesterday as I replayed it around 1 AM this morning.

5:00 AM – woke up
5:35 AM - Left the house
5:49 AM – Took on the train
6:55 AM - Arrived at work
In between the craziness at work, tried to work on a school research paper that was due last Friday because I was living on borrowed time.
6:00 PM – Left work
7:40 PM – Arrived home
7:55 PM – I had promise to take Brandon bowling - school event.
8:50 PM – Left the school

9:30 PM – I had to finish the paper. It’s a 12 page research paper on the “History of Christianity ” and my choice of topic was ‘The rise of the papacy’. I managed to put the last period on page # 12 at about 12:30 AM.


I was pretty desperate but no choice but to finish it. I am the queen of procrastination and I hope to find some sort of a cure for it. I’ve always waited at the last minute to finish school work and as a result put myself under a lot of stress. Based on how I managed to put that paper together with all the time constraints– I am counting on the professor being gracious to me (in addition to being late) – considering it’s worth 35%S of my grade. On the bright side, not only is the semester over but I have completed the coursework for my Master’s degree in Theological Studies at Liberty University in less than 2 years.

Hoooooraaaayyyyy.

I have actually studied something that I truly enjoyed and in a sense education is supposed to be enjoyable and fun. I could not say it was so for my undergrad degree. I also enjoyed my computer classes in Networking too. Did I ever tell you that I put a computer together back in 1989? Yep. I bought the parts and put them together together and used that PC for about 3 years.

Break Time.

I have opted for the time off to concentrate on the following:

Building a website for a sweet idea that I have been cherishing. I was given the Adobe Creative Suite Design Premium to play with and I have yet to start working on it.

Starting a Bible study in January: Lord, Only You Can Change Me, A Devotional Study on Growing in Character from the Beatitudes by Kay Arthur.
I should go back to work now. It has taken me 3 hours to write this post while working.

8 PM (God willing) Get home and try to figure out what to get Brandon’s teacher as a present. Last day of school for the year is tomorrow. Do I see the ugly head of procrastination rearing its ugly head again?

Have a blessed day everyone.

Myriam

12/14/2008

Wisdom directs our path


Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; think about Him in all your ways, and He will guide you on the right paths. Pr 3:5-6


Early on in my Christian years, I wanted to know the formula to discover God's will for my life. I usually ended up being disappointed after listening to sermons and or reading books because they didn't deliver on their promises to help discover God's will. Later on, I heard Dr. Charles Stanley said that 'If you want to know God's will, read the Bible and obey it" and I thought that was truly profound.

Years later, his son (Andy Stanley) taught a series called "Discovering God's will" and one of them he made the following statements: "God does not give us directions for our consideration or contemplation' but He guides and communicates assuming our willingness to act and obey. But the problem has been the unwillingness to follow through on what God has revealed through His word. It's more like 'God, show me what you want me to do so I can consider it – I will put it in my basket of options to consider'.

In a very real sense, our lives are the sum total of decisions that we have made (good or bad). There are pages in my life I wish I could rewrite all over and choose different paths. Nevertheless, I am very grateful that I can make different choices for the best that will result in different outcomes.

Proverbs 3:5–6 are precious promises to Christians who want to know and do God's will in every area of life. Fortunately, God wants us to know and do His will; He is eager to reveal His will to us , more than willing to guide and directs our paths but it's got to be on His own terms. First and foremost:

  • I am to listen to God's word


For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding.

And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, Col 1:9-10

  • I am to not only listen but obey God's word

If I really trust God, I will obey Him. Jesus made it clear that in this life we can take only one of two ways, and each of them leads to a different destination. Everybody has to choose either the crowded road that leads to destruction or the narrow road that leads to life (Matt. 7:13–14)

Heavenly Father, I am very thankful that you did not leave us in the dark but provided us with your word. Father, we pray that You will show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths, guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.

Ps, 25:3-4

12/06/2008

Wisdom's Second Call

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge” has been on my mind since starting reading Proverbs. The Word of God is indeed a path leading to righteousness – a lamp unto our feet (PS. 119:105) or as the Good News Translation says it: Your word is a lamp to guide me and a light for my path. I continue my reading and subsequently continue to be marveled at the greatness of our God.


“My child” or “My son” (depending on the version) is a repetitive phrase in Proverbs. “Kay Arthur advises that one reads the proverbs as if it is God the Father speaking to you, His own dear child whom He wants to show the path of life”. I took it literally and place my name wherever it reads “My child” or ‘My son”. I’ve somehow re-written scriptures – forgive me Lord. Now should you want to read chapter and place your name in the respective verses – it is a powerful exercise.

Proverbs 2 starts with:

Myriam, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, 2 turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding, 3 and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, 4 and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure…

Somewhere I may have previously mentioned that I read a lot and I seriously do and somehow information will come back to me about stuff that I’ve read and I find them very helpful. A very well known professor at Dallas Theological Seminary wrote a book called Living By The Book (it’s a classic - highly recommend it). Dr. Hendricks said whenever we read scriptures and find the word ‘if’ – stop and pay close attention. Most the time, ‘If’ is a condition to something ‘else’. Going back to high school days, I recall dealing with what they called conditional statements ‘If - Then’. I decided to look at the ‘if’ statements in these short 4 verses.

If I accept the words
If I store up the commands within me
If I cry aloud for understanding
If I call out for insight
If I look for it as silver or as hidden treasure

So much can be said and the reference to accept the words brings to mind the Parable of the Sower where the ones who accepted the word produced a harvest. Oh and what about Joshua – God told him to not let this book depart from him. The Jews are well too familiar with storing the commands within them – the commands were everywhere. God commanded them to write them on their hands so they wouldn’t forget them. If I may be honest here- I have done a lousy job with respect to the aforementioned. If there’s one thing that I am notorious for – it’s not being consistent. I am still looking for a cure.

What if I accept the challenge from this point on to accept the words and ignore the other voices that want to detour me?

What I choose to hide God’s commands within me and make that a habit from now on?

What If I start crying for understanding as if my life depended upon it?

What if I cry out for insight and rely totally on God? Cry as new-born babes do after the sincere milk of the word.

What if search (seriously) and pray more earnestly and have a serious attitude change? Wanting it far before all the wealth of this world, and laboring in search of it as those who dig in the mines?



Good questions. Where’s the ‘then’ part?

Proverbs 2:5-9

Then I will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.
Out of God’s mouth will come knowledge and understanding
He holds victory in store for the upright
He’s a shield to those whose walk is blameless
He guards the path of the just and protects his faithful ones
Then I will understand what is right and just and fair and every good path.


That’s a world of promises. Normally, I will be tempted to say they are true for others but not me. He’s faithful even when I am (and have been) unfaithful. He does not lie – nope – He cannot lie. I believe the lies of the enemy about not being worthy or being good enough and yet doubt and question whether the truths and promises of Gods’ words are for me too. Whose voice have I been listening to? God does not call me unworthy therefore leaves the enemy of my soul. I am choosing today to trust – not in a superficial way but to really let God dig out anything and everything that He did not plant in my life.


In Jesus Christ “are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge” (Col. 2:3), and He is our wisdom. That’s a world of promises. Normally, I will be tempted to say they are true for others but not me. He’s faithful even when I am (and have been) unfaithful. He does not lie – nope – He cannot lie. I believe the lies of the enemy about not being worthy or being good enough and yet doubt and question whether the truths and promises of Gods’ words are for me too. Whose voice have I been listening to? God does not call me unworthy therefore leaves the enemy of my soul. I am choosing today to trust – not in a superficial way but to really let God dig out anything and everything that He did not plant in my life.


In Jesus Christ “are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge” (Col. 2:3), and He is our wisdom. Thank you Father for opening my eyes to see and my ears to hear. May I be attentive to your voice!

12/04/2008

Wisdom’s First Call

On my way to work this morning, I got my iPod ready to listen to pastor Andy Stanley as I do every week. His church is based in Atlanta and I look forward to listen to his sermons via iTunes every week. This morning was no exception. Guess what the message was about? If you say ‘wisdom’ right out of Proverbs 1 -you are absolutely right. Way to go Jesus!

I have read chapter 1 several times using several translations – the Message version was so straightforward that some of its readers might be offended because it refers to one of the three groups addressed in chapter 1 as ‘idiots’. Ouch! On a lighter note, so much can be gleaned from that chapter alone. In fact, should you choose not to read the remaining 30 chapters – you will not be bored for a while.
The first few verses sets the stage for what the rest of the book is about, as noted in verses 2-6, the purposes of Solomon’s proverbs are to:

• Teach people wisdom, discipline
• To help them understand the insights of the wise.
• To teach people to live disciplined and successful lives.
• To help them do what is right, just, and fair.
• To give insight to the simple.
• To give Knowledge and discernment to the young.

There you have it. I hope and pray that God will keep His mighty hand on my beloved 9 year old. Referencing Andy Stanley’s church again – they have one of the greatest children ministries that I know. In fact, children from 1st to 5th grades live by the following three Basic Truths as they call them according what Jesus modeled in Luke 2:52.

• I need to make the wise choice.
• I can trust God no matter what.
• I should treat others the way I want to be treated.


My son knows them and they are used as a grid in just about everything from watching a TV show based on the characters do or say and personally in our life. In fact, if you hang around us long enough – you will hear him say something along the line ‘that wasn’t a wise choice –or I made the wise choice –right Mommy?’ It is my prayer that he continues to reference them and avoid the consequences of what Lady Wisdom warns the three categories of people she finds herself shouting at. Read for yourself how serious she is.

Lady Wisdom goes out in the street and shouts.
At the town center she makes her speech.
In the middle of the traffic she takes her stand.
At the busiest corner she calls out
(The Message -Verses 20-21)

The key verse that I find myself pondering over is “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge” 7a. It is essential to begin at the right place in order to gain spiritual insight and wisdom. My desire and hopefully yours too – to be wise we must start with reverence.

Priscilla Shirer in her book ‘He Speaks to Me” takes the verse apart and there’s a nice little exercise that follows.

Ready?

Recall the verse says: “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge” so she writes:

Fear means ‘reverence’ or ‘respect’
Beginning translates ‘the essence’ and
Knowledge means ‘perception, discernment, spiritual understanding’

Based on these definitions, rewrite the phrase ‘the fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge”

May God make His face shines upon you as you seek Him!!!

12/03/2008

Is Anybody Listening?

I am somehow managing to crawl of the hole that I’ve been hiding in for a while now due to demands on my time that was and still is very taxing. In an effort to remain a bit more devoted to this blog as well as a promised made to new babe in Christ – we will be going through the book of Proverbs together. The month of December is perfect because it has been suggested that one can read a chapter per day and cover the book of Proverbs.


I always love a challenge and I am on to begin a journey as I ponder the truths uttered by the old king – the wisest king –Solomon. Embedded in that precious book are precious gems. These truths contained touch upon some very important areas of the human life such as acquiring and using wealth, making and keeping friends, building a happy home, avoiding temptation and trouble, controlling our feelings, disciplining the tongue, and building godly character.

And so the book opens with: The Proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel.


The first verse has plenty of references next to it and they were very telling. I find the question that God asks of Solomon very interesting and it is the following:

At Gibeon the LORD appeared to Solomon during the night in a dream, and God said: “Ask for whatever you want me to give you." 1 Kings 3:5


Whatever – hmm.

It was Solomon’s response that provided us with the very book of Proverbs. Here’s what the king said:

“So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. 1 Kings 3:9

I am impressed. Why? You might ask. I seriously doubt this would have been my response. Really. I could have easily come up with a list. 1. How soon can I quit my job 2. Ideal family life. 3. Not to forget – plenty of cash 4. Removal of fears of any kind. And on and on the list would go. As you can see it’s all about me, myself and I (the other false trinity). Just so you know King Solomon – you were indeed very wise for asking for discerning heart. Had I have one, I could have avoided much troubles, pains, and heartaches. I am grateful for a God of second chances. No – I meant a God of thousand of thousands chances. Indeed very thankful Father that your mercies are new every day.

The story continues…

The Lord was pleased that Solomon had asked for this. So God said to him, "Since you have asked for this and not for long life or wealth for yourself, nor have asked for the death of your enemies but for discernment in administering justice, I will do what you have asked. I will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be. 1 Kings 3:10-12


I love the fact that the Lord was pleased. I want to learn from the heroes of the faith who have gone before me who pleased the Lord. I imagine the Lord smiling or clapping ‘well done Solomon’. How sweet are these words? Jesus once was so please with his disciples when they came back with a report after He had sent them out to preach the good news about the kingdom that He jumped up and down with excitement.


And in response – “God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.” 1 Kings 4:29
So much that: He spoke with thousand proverbs and his songs numbered a thousand and five. 1 Kings 4:32. These inspiring sayings or proverbs have much to teach us about God, man, sin, creation, and a host of other topics. The first few chapters introduce to two important ladies: Wisdom and Folly.

Wisdom and folly are personified as women in Proverbs and each has different motives. I am ready to sit at the feet of Lady Wisdom (as wisdom is referred to in the first 9 chapters of Proverbs) as she continues to cry and shout to get our attention. As for Lady Folly- she wants to get us on the wrong path which leads to death. Well- each wants to control our lives, and we must make the choice. After we have committed ourselves to the Lord and His wisdom, we must recognize that there are consequences to the decisions we make.

Speak Lord!!!